Day 2:: NO change..

Days generally start when u wake up from ur sleep.. but ever since i had started my college.. the whole meaning of it was lost..
Day past 00:00 is what you call a day is guess, :) :)

Had talked to dharan abt our thing.. n you donn believe me dear.. it was jus as i expected..

he started darting me with sum good quality questions... He was asking me.. "y did u agree to give up ur 200 days jus because her sis said it.. he said.. y d u wanna talk abt whats gonna happen later..?
U ppl donn even know each other.. then how come u agreed for it..?"" so on and on..

But, i donno what really bind me from that questionnaire on that ni8 when we decided to abstain myself from being wid you..

i didnt know what to answer to his questions.. so turned silent and was hearing to what all he was sayin.. JUS LIKE I WAS WHEN YOU WERE SAYIN THAT WE NEED TO STOP TALKING FOR SUM DAYS...

Later on had a troubled sleep for sum 4 odd hours and started the day jus like any mundane day. I was trying myself to be busy in the office, so was trying to work into whateva thing i can fit in. Finally gave up on it after the lunch break.. All around me was so gloomy.. i donno why im not able to be normal even after trying a lot..

Even now, sitting in the balcony in the freezing cold, im here thinking of things to talk wid you.

1 week ago.. i was blind coz im always connected with a whole new world.whereas today im in the same mode.. disconnected from the reality, as im not able to get back to reality.. still searchin for you..
Hoping you would talk to me..

Donno how long i can take this thing going.. but ill try my level best..

missing you.. signing off

Day 1.. n it begins

Hey Preethi.. i m pretty sure you would read this thing some day..
but before that i would like to let u know that..
By the time you start reading this.. im in a very much broken condition.. sulking for support.
Deeply searching at the tip of any light for a ray of hope..
A hope pertaining to.. you know..

Who would think its real love when they hear that i accepted to give up my BEST MOMENTS wid you for 200 days.. Instead they would name it CRAZY, STUPID, MANIAC, SICK or even worse..

But, im here to keep my word for you... I will do anything i can;just for making sure that you are the way you want to be...

Im not even in a state to talk about all this things right now.. coz today; its the beginning of this situation for me..
GOD knows how you are feeling pretty.. but im not at all in a situation to narrate.

The day began like this::

"To start the day with this thought.. really sends a chill down the spine.. I thought this would be far easy than thought.. coz whatever I was dng.. it was for u..

Now im here.. hoping the time to come back so that I can say you.. that it isn’t possible for me to stay away from thinking abt you or seeing you..

It has hardly been 7 hrs that we had a talk on this,.. but I m already feeling like sum1 punctured my heart.

Lets see how this day is gonna go..

I am in hope for a miracle to happen so that I can get u back as soon as possible."--(that were the words i typed from the official maid id.. the ones that ran through my ming when i thought abt u)

so to tell you abt my day..

It was jus like another day in the office. I was missing a lot things and feeling the vaccum.

I didnt have my phone.. dharan n shubhra werent there in the company and above all.. 

U R NOT THERE... 

i felt as if like i'm kicked out of the world.. n i deserve to jus be 'alive' and not LIVE(i always LIVED the life.. u know that)

I started to keep myself busy but in vain.. im locked up in your thoughts.

N later the day ends.. 

anthey..

chepadaniki emi ledhu..

Lets see.. if i can get over this thing to get busy in life..

But Preethi i fear,.. nuv cheppinattu follow avuthoo ninnu ekkada kolipothaano ani..nijam chepaalante.. i dont want to get over this thing preethi.. i want to be with you..

Hoping for some miracle to happen.. signing off