The BLISSS

First of all.. i dont even know the meaning of BLISS.. as far as i remember., the best way to describe the feeling BLISS is that.. it is jus like heaven.. an undescribable.. magnificient feeling..

You know what..
In the busy day at the industry.. im in this activity of deciding a measure for sum CRAP(coz the thought i got was awesome) technical wrk.. so i was thinking of the strategy with MY brain(which evidently is not with me) then all of a sudden.. this thought flashes..

Woah!! it was such a feeling.. preeeethiiii...

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It is sumwhere around in morning time.. around 11am i guess.. im sitting on this old wooden bench(the ones which you see in the open areas) and the climate was moderate..

Lush greenery.. serene breeze.. pleasant location..

There you come walking towards me in a peach colour top..( i cant visualise how ur attire was.. God!! im always deviated by watching your eyes and smile) and then u come near me..

I'm sitting on this bench and you are standing near to me..
when all of a sudden.. i feel this thing..
actually... it was you.. who caught my palm.. then i gently hold your both palms.. feeling your hands..

i got hold of the tip of your fingers and pulled me closer to you..
got onto to my feet.. and swiftly ran my hand across your back(i meant the back side of your stomach.. i donno what u call in English)

i pull you closer to myself and gently let you rest your head on me...

it was sooo .. ... ....

i have no words to describe how i was feeling then.. and im feeling the same even writing this...

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P.S:: pretty.. i know i should not have been visualizing this n all.. but i cant help it.. it was a flash thought..

Day 30.. first month for our sweet unnamed relation.. :P

Hey!!!
Wish you(us) a happy day.. :) :)

First things first..
Missing your presence n all are getting routine.. i mean.. i m getting used to missin you.. :) :)
Need some amazing power i guess.. in order to get you back right in front of me..

Things here are speeding up and making me occupied with the day forcing me to spend less time thinking about you.. but u see,,, u r much sweeter to resist(thinking about you) ;)

Good chance to learn a lot of things i guess.. during the time i'm gonna stay back her during the SHUT-DOWN..

Right now.. i'm sitting on my bed in the chilling atmosphere.. with clothes yet to be washed inundating in the bucket.. But, i'm going mad about things around here dear..

I donn feel like talking to anyone.. i donno how long this is gonna be.. but need to get out of this as soon as possible.. I donn wanna loose my friends.. i donn wanna hurt them.. i donn wanna be alone.. but, in this way im acting.. i might go frenzy and loose all the ones on my side..

2 days ago i had a japanese training session on HYDRAULICS..it was such a pain in the head that i didnt understand a single thing..The funniest part was the Japanese who knew English(which sounds again like Japanese) was translating the Japanese version of his colleague who is teaching things to us.

But the only thing resourceful about that session was that.. it came like a DOTING reminder that i need to learn a lot about a LOT of things.. :)

The SHUTDOWN activities started since yesterday and my seniors are having lot of hopes on me.. i jus donn wanna let them down.. ill give my best..

N Preeeethi.. ninnu chudakunda matladadam naa valla katledhu raa.. i donno why.. but,i feel like talking to u.. by seeing your eyes.. i jus love them..

N u know what.. i remember only ur smile and ur eyes... not ur face as a whole.. :)

i jus love staring you and the thought about you,..

Hope that the time flies as soon as possible to reach the moment i m vouching for..

Miss you ra.. 

Day 27.. Desolated

Refreshing it is whenever i feel the very thought of you hitting my mind. :) :)

Pleasant as a serene environment.. i feel when i recollect(rather there isnt any need for it.. u know the slideshow)

your smile and the shy look which you give.. 

Haucus paucus..

Dwindling in my thoughts would never make me tired and talking abut them would make me endlessly talkative.. :)

Its Day 4 ever since you left for the tour and the day when ill be able to see you again is no where closer.

It isnt much painful this time, as it was then., when you didnt take the IMPORTANT decision.." My life giving DECISION"

Im trying myself to be as preoccupied as possible; piling up the entire works of all the people in my department so that i can be BUSY.. but nevertheless, your STARING look would always keep doting.. as if like you are standing behind me and watching me work,just to send chills down the spine.

Dharan is away.. and there isn't any possibility that i'm gonna meet him before jan 4th i guess... i doubt the previous statement though as that idiot was sayin that he might be back by this Wednesday. A top up to that is that Abhimanyu is leaving tomorrow to CHENNAI.. GOD! y r all my close ones going to south.. away from me.

Shubhra is there here.. or else Ufff!! i might seriously have gone <<CRAZY>>

But, the people around making fuzz is lil bit disturbing.. as i donn want people to think and Comment BAD about the ones close to me.. that's why i'm trying to maintain lil bit distance but its not working coz i have no one else;that close to talk to in REAL!

N i forgot to mention.. i'm already CRAZY (about you) but the <<CRAZY>> which i mentioned before is sumthing different with this context. :P :P

Yesterday ni8 i was all alone walking in the Dark Black Top roads in the haunting FOG .. all alone and i rather enjoyed it... was thinking how beautiful its gonna be when i'm gonna walk along wid you.. 

God! i wanna see your face while you are reading this.. i'm sure you are gonna pose one of the L***** poses .. 

There are a lot of other things as well that i wanna 'say'.. so as far as the things to write to u.. that's all to pen..

Wid loads of ____ ..

CRAZY- DESOLATED guy for preethi.. :) 

Day 2:: NO change..

Days generally start when u wake up from ur sleep.. but ever since i had started my college.. the whole meaning of it was lost..
Day past 00:00 is what you call a day is guess, :) :)

Had talked to dharan abt our thing.. n you donn believe me dear.. it was jus as i expected..

he started darting me with sum good quality questions... He was asking me.. "y did u agree to give up ur 200 days jus because her sis said it.. he said.. y d u wanna talk abt whats gonna happen later..?
U ppl donn even know each other.. then how come u agreed for it..?"" so on and on..

But, i donno what really bind me from that questionnaire on that ni8 when we decided to abstain myself from being wid you..

i didnt know what to answer to his questions.. so turned silent and was hearing to what all he was sayin.. JUS LIKE I WAS WHEN YOU WERE SAYIN THAT WE NEED TO STOP TALKING FOR SUM DAYS...

Later on had a troubled sleep for sum 4 odd hours and started the day jus like any mundane day. I was trying myself to be busy in the office, so was trying to work into whateva thing i can fit in. Finally gave up on it after the lunch break.. All around me was so gloomy.. i donno why im not able to be normal even after trying a lot..

Even now, sitting in the balcony in the freezing cold, im here thinking of things to talk wid you.

1 week ago.. i was blind coz im always connected with a whole new world.whereas today im in the same mode.. disconnected from the reality, as im not able to get back to reality.. still searchin for you..
Hoping you would talk to me..

Donno how long i can take this thing going.. but ill try my level best..

missing you.. signing off

Day 1.. n it begins

Hey Preethi.. i m pretty sure you would read this thing some day..
but before that i would like to let u know that..
By the time you start reading this.. im in a very much broken condition.. sulking for support.
Deeply searching at the tip of any light for a ray of hope..
A hope pertaining to.. you know..

Who would think its real love when they hear that i accepted to give up my BEST MOMENTS wid you for 200 days.. Instead they would name it CRAZY, STUPID, MANIAC, SICK or even worse..

But, im here to keep my word for you... I will do anything i can;just for making sure that you are the way you want to be...

Im not even in a state to talk about all this things right now.. coz today; its the beginning of this situation for me..
GOD knows how you are feeling pretty.. but im not at all in a situation to narrate.

The day began like this::

"To start the day with this thought.. really sends a chill down the spine.. I thought this would be far easy than thought.. coz whatever I was dng.. it was for u..

Now im here.. hoping the time to come back so that I can say you.. that it isn’t possible for me to stay away from thinking abt you or seeing you..

It has hardly been 7 hrs that we had a talk on this,.. but I m already feeling like sum1 punctured my heart.

Lets see how this day is gonna go..

I am in hope for a miracle to happen so that I can get u back as soon as possible."--(that were the words i typed from the official maid id.. the ones that ran through my ming when i thought abt u)

so to tell you abt my day..

It was jus like another day in the office. I was missing a lot things and feeling the vaccum.

I didnt have my phone.. dharan n shubhra werent there in the company and above all.. 

U R NOT THERE... 

i felt as if like i'm kicked out of the world.. n i deserve to jus be 'alive' and not LIVE(i always LIVED the life.. u know that)

I started to keep myself busy but in vain.. im locked up in your thoughts.

N later the day ends.. 

anthey..

chepadaniki emi ledhu..

Lets see.. if i can get over this thing to get busy in life..

But Preethi i fear,.. nuv cheppinattu follow avuthoo ninnu ekkada kolipothaano ani..nijam chepaalante.. i dont want to get over this thing preethi.. i want to be with you..

Hoping for some miracle to happen.. signing off